Thursday, 31 July 2014

Vampire attack!!!

So, today I worked from home (yawn) and went to the clinic for my health MOT. Luckily - as it was a fasting blood test appointment - I managed to get a fairly early appointment (9:10 am) but I was still starving by the time I got there, fasting is definitely not my thing. The nurse made me get on a set of scales to be weighed (which was not a lot of fun for me) and took my blood pressure before draining my blood and asking a bunch of lifestyle questions that made me want to dive into a barrel of whiskey with a pound of chocolate... However, she said my blood pressure & weight (!!!!) were good so hopefully the blood test results will be ok... of course they won't be back for a week.
My ear is improving (less pain though not much more hearing) and between a little shopping & a trip to the clinic I got about 4 miles walking as well, so that was something.

Food today:
Breakfast: nothing until after my appointment, and then a protein flapjack
Lunch: sausage & sauerkraut soup and a little low carb grain free bread (homemade)
Dinner: sardine 'pasta' on courgette noodles
Snacks: gluten free hot cross bun (don't ask)

Wednesday, 30 July 2014

Eh? Whazzat?

I was back in the office today, very very bored and still very hard of hearing in my right ear but holding the pain at bay by taking pills every 4 hours instead of waiting till it started hurting. Prevention is better than cure, right? Well at least it's possible to function that way...
Tomorrow I'll be working from home again so I can go back to the doctors - this time to get blood drawn for a full set of 'MOT' health checks that will hopefully tell me if there's any underlying reason for my less than excellent health the last few weeks. Somehow I won't be amazed if everything comes back within normal ranges and I'm still left with 'just a bit run down' as the only explanation I can work with. (In the meantime, Diane, I am changing to a slightly more 'normal' diet in case of any deficiencies in what I generally do (not that I've been following my general diet with much success since falling repeatedly off the low carb wagon while recovering from my eye op - I think I've allowed myself to become re-addicted to sugar and poor quality carbs) For now I'm bringing back white rice and potatoes; gluten-containing grains remain mostly off the menu (though yesterday I did have a mainstream sandwich for lunch while in town trying to get some medicine for my ear) and so do the other grains that are often contaminated / have similar issues.)

Food today:
Breakfast: eggs scrambled with mushrooms, potatoes & leek
Lunch: homemade sausage & sauerkraut soup followed by fresh melon & dried pineapple
Dinner: chicken, mushroom & spinach *risotto* yay rice!!!
Snacks: cashews, natural yogurt

Tuesday, 29 July 2014

Crappy day

I took today as a sick day after the pain in my ear kept me awake most of last night.
It took me the whole day to get a prescription for the ear infection now filling my life with such joy - a saga of getting a prescription for ear drops that have apparently been discontinued, making and awaiting phone calls to get an alternative prescription, and making multiple trips into town. Altogether - on a day when I was knackered & feeling lousy - I ended up walking over 6 miles in 26 degree heat at approximately 210% humidity because I didn't feel I should drive.

On the plus side, I walked over 6 miles on a day when I lacked the energy to train and, left to myself,would have stayed on the sofa all day. On the minus side, I was practically deaf in one ear, in pain apart from when I took ibuprofen, and it was really really hot - I think I caught the sun. And after all that, I'm not sure how much good my eventually acquired eardrops are doing - it certainly doesn't feel better right now.
Life sucks.
Someone should put me out of my misery - I'm pretty sure they would if I were a dog.
Woof woof grrr whimper

Monday, 28 July 2014

I swear I'm falling. apart.

My recent infection is now pretty much as though it never happened, swelling & pain all gone. Literally 2 days after finishing the antibiotics for that, though, I woke up with an ear infection. I'm guessing the real reason is that the first infection (and 2 different antibiotics) knackered my immune system and it's not yet back up to speed, but I confess my less considered opinion is that my body is punishing me for something / dissolving into mush.  Either way I spent the weekend pumping OTC ear drops in there & apart from feeling extremely hard of hearing in that ear (like being half under water) it seems to be responding well. But still. Aaarrrggh.
On Saturday I had a fairly lazy day - I walked a couple of miles, but no more, put off by the heat. Having said that it was pretty much as hot on Sunday and I managed 5.25 miles - split between 2 slightly shorter walks so the heat didn't feel quite as exhausting & demotivating. I didn't train over the weekend and was too tired this morning for a pre-work session. I also ate too much of the wrong things - being pissed off when it's someone's birthday is a bad combo. Sigh.
Tomorrow is another day...

Friday, 25 July 2014

zzzzzz

I'm knackered and lacking energy today but, having walked in total 4.07 miles yesterday (in hotter than hell temperatures, after walking a total of one mile in the preceding two WEEKS...) I'm feeling a lot happier. Almost human in fact. But sooo tired, and I don't know why given that I think I slept reasonably well last night (or at least I don't remember it being one of those nights when I wake up 35 times and take 6 hrs to fall asleep again each time)
I have been very hungry all day as well. By 11:15 am I'd eaten my breakfast, snack & lunch... For a change I wasn't craving sweet gluten-y baked goods or chocolate though. I just filled the gap by buying some natural yoghurt to also boost my gut recovery.
On the subject of that, I have sauerkraut at home & am making some water kefir as well to help with that. I've also been reading a lot about the probiotic properties of resistant starch so I'll be eating cold / chilled & reheated boiled potatoes & white rice for that as well.

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs with mushrooms, onion & spinach
Lunch: cold pork sandwich - made with this no carb spinach 'bread' (forgot to link this the other day) and a natural yoghurt
Dinner: courgette pasta with homemade (slow cooker) marinara sauce to which I added a tin of sardines in olive oil for protein. With sauerkraut!
Snacks: cashews, cold meat

Thursday, 24 July 2014

Better...?

OK I overate a lot today. But after 2 weeks of total lack of movement, I also walked 4.07 miles today. So I don't care

Wednesday, 23 July 2014

Let me eat cake

Yesterday I started writing a post, got as far as the summary of food and couldn't think of anything at all to write beyond that. I know my life is never that exciting, but recently, while I haven't been going out or training, I really have fallen into a tv watching, cooking, eating sleeping rut - I can barely stay awake for it, let alone make it sound halfway interesting in a post. Of course that's been true for a while so I'm not sure why yesterday I finally couldn't be bothered to try...
So, all the above is still true. I've done a bit more housework since the pain and swelling from the infection (and the upset stomach from the antibiotics) have reduced but I've still walked less than a mile a day and not trained. And though I'm not quoting numbers, I weighed myself yesterday and discovered that the small amount of weight I'd lost over several weeks of struggling has found me again after only 2 weeks of feeling sorry for myself because of the infection - though I'm hoping at least some of that is down to water retention from the crappy carbs I've been eating. Even so, right now it looks like yet another holiday will be started with me being already overweight and dreaming of not adding yet more lbs while away. Hmph. Maybe that answers the question of why I wasn't motivated to post yesterday. And why I ate some cake today, because clearly what I need is more crappy carbs...
Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs with bacon, onion & spinach
Lunch: cold chicken sandwich - made with this no carb spinach 'bread'
Dinner: Sri Lankan beef mince curry with cauliflower rice
Snacks: Greek yogurt with strawberries, half an avocado. Cake

Monday, 21 July 2014

Not bad for a Monday

Well, I'm feeling less depressed now. I've completed one course of antibiotics and the other one finishes Thursday. I'm not entirely happy that I still have a red swollen gland, but it's massively improved from it's worst, and my digestive side effects have settled down too.
I spent the weekend indoors most of the time, working on a software deployment Sunday morning. I had multiple salt baths and ate porridge for breakfast as Diane suggested (with yoghurt stirred in for a double whammy) We also watched two movies that we both enjoyed - World War Z and Seeking a Friend for the End of the World. Very different films, but both very watchable in their own way!
Today I was back in the office, freezing in the overactive air conditioning but quite enjoying being around people again. Won't last of course since I'm fundamentally antisocial but while it does last it's good.
At lunchtime I went into town briefly and quite enjoyed it for the first time in a week - no discomfort and it was nice and warm, but not so hot that I was worried about sweatiness. I hope to go further afield tomorrow.
Hopefully I'm out of the woods and moving forwards finally!

Food today:
Breakfast: eggs scrambled with bacon, leek & mushrooms
Lunch: cream of carrot & coriander soup and a natural yoghurt
Dinner: pork & vegetable stirfry
Snacks: homemade pork scratchings, cashews

Friday, 18 July 2014

I'm a bit depressed at the moment

Taking 2 different antibiotics and not feeling fantastic - possibly because I dived head first into crappy carbs for comfort. Not really in the mood to post and generally a miserable git.
I'm pretty sure I'll feel better once I finish the meds and can start rebuilding my gut again.
I hope anyway

Tuesday, 15 July 2014

Bugger

I think the infection is fighting back... It's still about a million times better than last week before I got my prescription, both in terms of pain and swelling - but it seems to be more swollen today than it was yesterday. The doctor did say if the antibiotics didn't seem to be doing the job he could add something else so I guess it's not a massive shock if they're not enough on their own - but it's not the rapid healing and moving on I was hoping for. If I'm lucky it's just a temporary irritation because I popped into town at lunchtime - only about half a mile round trip, but more than I've been doing - and it will calm down over night. If not, I might have to contact the clinic again.

Monday, 14 July 2014

Revelations

I felt well enough to go back to work this morning after doing NOTHING all weekend (or resting really hard depending how you look at it) except cooking & watching TV.
I've finally worked out what needs to change so I can lose weight.

I need to quit my job.

Over the weekend I had relatively little problem avoiding snacking so I could take my antibiotics at the prescribed separation from my meals. This morning my breakfast was the same as yesterday's and eaten at more or less the same time, and I was checking the clock to see if enough time had passed between pills and meals to allow me to snack. Boredom is the culprit, therefore if I could just win a fortune and retire I'd be as svelte as I could wish for.... Especially with all the great walking time that would be freed up.

Over the weekend my infection was responding really well to the antibiotics and rest. I have to admit I spent the whole time in nothing but a very soft, well worn, and loose  dressing gown to avoid anything rubbing of chafing it as well; I was less comfortable today being back in work from quite early in the day and even had to take a painkiller this afternoon. Even so it's roughly six steps forwards, one step back compared to how I felt last week when I was driven to see the doctor, though I'm not ready to risk getting sweaty yet, and I am frustrated by that. And very ready to stop watching the clock so I know when to take my next massive horse pill - it reminds me of the constant eye drops after my operation, although I can at least take the pills without a mirror and a tissue to hand.
Having basically not walked or trained for a week now I'm feeling bloated, unfit, and as boring as I am bored. So I apologise for seeming to talk about nothing but pills and infections; I really don't have anything else going on at the moment.
Oh yes, one thing occurred to me just then. If you like movies, do NOT watch Scary Movie 5. You probably don't need telling anyway, but seriously, don't. I don't care how old / young, fit / sick you are - life's too short. I'm so ashamed that I know this from personal experience. Seriously. If someone walks towards you holding out the disk, don't pause, just run. And if you can trample it into the ground in the process, so much the better. God, I wish I had...
Just to clarify, I was in the same room as the movie but I did not watch the whole thing, I swear it, don't stop reading on the grounds of my bad taste (im movies)

Food today:
Breakfast: cacao coffee chia coconut pudding (I omitted the vanilla extract in this recipe & added a brewed espresso coffee)
Lunch: cold meat & salad
Dinner: basil beef burgers in lettuce with fried potatoes
Snacks: Greek yoghurt with strawberries (chopped, frozen,  defrosted); cashew nuts

Friday, 11 July 2014

Improving slowly but surely

I haven't left the house today, or moved further than the kitchen & bathroom. My infection isn't fixed obviously, but it's been less painful today anyway and believe me that's a big step forward.
Sadly the antibiotics haven't had the appetite suppressing effect I was hoping for (a little) but the initial diarrhoea is settling down so that's better too.
I agree with you, Diane, I do need more calories and some rest to let it heal. I am probably certainly going to eat more extra calories than needed unless my appetite is suppressed, but that's better than healing more slowly. I've been reading The Perfect Health Diet by Paul & Shou-Ching Jaminet, and while it is still a gluten free, very natural diet of real foods, it is a less low carb plan - allowing white rice & potatoes as well as sweet potatoes - and in the book there are quite a lot of testimonials -and some convincing scientific explanation  - that being too low carb can impair the immune system. I was thinking of switching to this plan after my holiday as some low carbers gain weight at first due to water retention, but now I'm thinking sooner is better, even if I go on holiday heavier than I want. Pain or sickness is more likely to ruin a holiday after all!

Food today: NOT A GF DAY!!!
Breakfast: scrambled eggs with bacon, mushroom & tomato
Lunch; a quick soup simmered up from homemade stock, chicken breast, carrot, celery & seaweed
Dinner: Bolognese with courgette noodles & sourdough bread
Snacks: protein cookie

Thursday, 10 July 2014

Yuck

Well, I did go to the doctor today and now I have a course of antibiotics to take along with the advice to have salt baths and instructions to call if I feel I need an additional antibiotic adding / it starts exuding fluid.
Sometimes I think my body just wants to gross me out to death.

So

I treated myself to some chocolatey things while I was out, brought them home to pig on, and then realised that my antibiotics have to be taken on an empty stomach - one hour before food, two hours after food, and 4 times a day - they may actually help me control my urge towards undisciplined snacking! (not today - I just made sure that I could fit the chocolate in around them. But hey - I've been fighting the urge to eat chocolate all week as I believe I've whined griped complained mentioned a couple of million times) Actually the only other time I had a course of antibiotics - for a kidney infection 10,100 years ago - it deprived me simultaneously of appetite and energy. The appetite part I don't mind, the energy part less so - I don't want to have to vegetate for 10 days.

So I didn't train, I didn't walk - in fact I drove 1.1 miles to the doctor's, that's unheard of for me. Usually I won't get the car out for anything less than 2 miles - and only that if I have to buy something I can't carry or need petrol.
Not an exciting update!

Food today
Breakfast: scrambled egg with sweet potato, mushrooms & bacon
Lunch: chocolate & dried fruit
Dinner: Rump steak & sweet potato fries
Snacks: home-made pork rinds

Wednesday, 9 July 2014

Snarl

Still really uncomfortable so I didn't train today; however if I can find a way to avoid actively making things worse and this break fails to make it any better by tomorrow morning I'm giving up going to make an appointment to see a doctor and ask for some antibiotics (I'm reluctant to because I know they mess with all the body's fauna, not just the bad guys, but needs must. I've been using a topical anti-inflammatory painkiller on it since yesterday but can't see a great deal of improvement so far. In fact it's more swollen and more reddened today and I've even felt slightly feverish this evening (though that could be hypochondria)
Surprisingly I slept quite well last night and didn't struggle to get up this morning, although it still felt kind of pointless getting up as early as I normally would to train.
I confess I'm still fighting off the desire for a binge at the moment. I'm considering making a cocoa/carob chia or avocado pudding so I feel like I've had some chocolate without all the sugar & additives in commercial bars / desserts but I'm not certain in won't trigger anything worse so haven't done it yet. But I have ground chia and avocado in the house as well as unsweetened cacao and carob powder and I swear it's calling out to me... Maybe I'm hallucinating!

This feels so unfair coming just when I was getting back on track...

Food today:
Breakfast: eggs scrambled with bacon, mushrooms, leek & spinach
Lunch: beef salad (including a small baked sweet potato - finally adding in those extra carbs!)
Dinner: creamy pasta (courgette noodles of course) with creme fraiche, gammon, mushrooms, red onion and fresh parsley
Snacks: homemade beef sausage with middle eastern salad dressing.

Tuesday, 8 July 2014

Emotionally, I am six. And pouting

That may be an insult to 6 yr olds everywhere.
No pre-work training today to avoid rubbing & chafing (& sweating on) that angry lymph node. I got up at the same time (I do believe in consistent bed & rising times) and found myself regretting it a bit due to the morning just dragging.
I was so uncomfortable all morning that I basically sulked from 7 - 12, then didn't go for a proper walk but only popped into town to a pharmacy for some supplies. I was also knackered all morning - I actually needed extra coffee around 10:30, which never happens. Moan moan, whinge whinge, I'll shut up now, thank god the vending machine is still out of order...
I sulked all afternoon too. There was a birthday today with obligatory doughnuts and cookies... I really felt like grabbing all the bags & boxes and taking them to my desk, then doing an impression of Gollum protecting his precious until they were all gone.... I'm not sure how I resisted, but somehow I confined myself to a few strawberries that she also brought in. And more sulking. Lots more sulking. I didn't enjoy today. I'm guessing you didn't enjoy my today either.

Food today:
Breakfast: sort of egg drop soup - homemade chicken stock with mushrooms, leek, spinach & beaten egg stirred through to cook, flavoured with a few drops of coconut aminos. It was very tasty but less filling than I'd hoped it would be.
Lunch: ham salad, a couple of strawberres & a plum
Dinner: lamb stew over cauliflower rice
Snacks: homemade beef sausage & a raw carrot with homemade Paleo ranch dressing; lots more strawberries (with creme fraiche, and not the wussy reduced fat kind.

Monday, 7 July 2014

Sleepy...

This weekend was a bit better in terms of being less diet-sabotagey and minus vomiting so that was good. I did go slightly nuts on cashews yesterday, but I was gluten free and added-sugar-free all weekend and although I didn't walk much I did train yesterday. I also watched a couple of movies (The Chernobyl Diaries - rubbish - and The Host, which I enjoyed) and spent a reasonable amount of time in the kitchen making batches of salad dressings and homemade chicken stock & homemade beef sausage.
This morning I managed to force myself out of bed and onto the climber first thing - it did take a degree of force too - and although I didn't actually enjoy my session I did enjoy finishing it!
I also walked 2 1/4 miles at lunchtime for some shopping. But I've been pretty tired most of the day - nearly nodded off around 11:30 - (and have a painfully (actually agonizingly)  inflamed lymph node) so I may be feeling a bit run down. I think tomorrow it's either less exercise or more carbs to fuel the exercise - maybe both.

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs with bacon, mushrooms & leek
Lunch: ham salad followed by Greek yogurt and watermelon
Dinner: chicken salad with homemade dressing, incorporating half an avocado along with the veggies.
Snacks: homemade beef sausage from a well fed 2 recipe - sort of Turkish, plus a raw carrot, all dipped in a middle eastern inspired mayo-based salad dressing.

Friday, 4 July 2014

Oh what a beautiful morning, oh what a beautiful day ...

Sunshine & warmth all day today! I got to work too early for the door to be unlocked, and instead of sitting in my car reading until someone showed up with the key I was able to bask in the sunshine for some early vitamin D production.
When I was able to get in I discovered I was moving desks - away from the disgusting man who has been the bane of my life the last few months - and getting a window again, so I got peace and quiet & natural light all together in one excellent new desk!
I had trained before work again and at lunchtime enjoyed some more sunshine walking just under 2.5 miles for some shopping. I wanted to make the most of it while it lasted, as the forecast at the weekend is mixed at best.

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs with mushrooms & leek
Lunch: raw spicy bok choy soup followed by melon and Greek yoghurt
Dinner: Bolognese sauce with zucchini noodles & a side salad
Snacks: 4 chicken chipolata sausages

Thursday, 3 July 2014

Yawn.... Can you get used to being knackered ALL the time?

I woke up fairly early this morning so I used training as an early morning caffeine supplement and it worked quite well.
Unfortunately all morning I had a bit of back pain, not too bad - it mostly just felt tight and was easily stopped by OTC painkillers so I hope it's nothing that will stop me training.
By lunchtime it was baking here so I spent my lunch break reading instead of walking. The secondary benefit of that being that I couldn't buy any extra food, which probably would have happened if I'd gone out. I'm reading a series of murder mysteries set in deepest Alaska at the moment, and when it's boiling outside I'm almost attracted to the Alaskan weather as I read... Of course I did an Alaskan cruise a while back, but that was the middle of summer and the weather wasn't bad at all, so my experience limits my imagination and I know I can't even conceive of such cold...
After work I was willing to walk as I didn't have to spend the evening in sweaty clothes afterwards, but only had time to go a couple of miles before hitting the kitchen.
Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs with bacon, mushrooms & leek
Lunch: salad with cold meat
Dinner: salmon fishcakes with kale salad
Snacks: hard boiled egg. Illicit bag of Real Crisps

Wednesday, 2 July 2014

Back on the climber again

I trained this morning. Couldn't believe it was almost a week since the last time I did :-0 and I was very glad to get back into it. I don't regret skipping yesterday morning at all, but I definitely feel more alert today. At lunchtime I walked 2.4 miles (would have been 3 but some inconsiderate git started talking to me, and 15 minutes later I didn't have time to walk 3 miles & get back to the office unsweaty to eat lunch & start work on time.)
After work I considered going for another walk but got caught up in various chores and didn't get round to it. It's possibly just as well since my feet are embarrassingly ugly these days - callouses and dry skin and blisters - I have fantasies about hot wax pedicures but I'm trying not to spend money at the moment.
Except apparently on food - we got a takeaway this evening in celebration of my contract extension.
M isn't very well at the moment - probably a summer cold, he's sneezing as if he had hay fever but has a sore throat as well. I'm trying to avoid his germs so I don't find myself in the same state, especially as I'm still trying to get back into training consistently. Keep your fingers crossed for me, ok?

Food today:
Breakfast: scrambled eggs topped with bacon & cherry tomatoes
Lunch: salad with cold meat
Dinner: lamb & chicken shush kebab & salad with garlic sauce. No Pitta but a few chips....
Snacks: meatballs

Tuesday, 1 July 2014

Feeling human again

Yesterday I hardly ate all day due to ongoing nausea (its possible that migraine nausea segued into hunger nausea eventually as I did feel better after eating dinner) Because of that I didn't train this morning - just didn't have the energy - but instead waited till after work (and eating normally all day) when I hoped to feel stronger than first thing; yeah, that didn't happen. But tomorrow is another day - and I did walk 2.33 miles in my lunchbreak. So not a total washout like yesterday, but close... I was hungry pretty much all day today though I somehow resisted bingeing the way I did when I last tried intentionally fasting. But I started prepping an early dinner the minute I got back to the house; that's why training was not an option today. I should be caught up now though!

Oh yes, and I got a 6 month contract extension at work today. I was expecting one month, and wouldn't be entirely surprised if it turned out to be a miscommunication of some kind. Still, for today I'm all set till December!

Food today:
Breakfast: eggs scrambled with red pepper, bacon & mushroom
Lunch: salad with cold meat & some melon
Dinner: lamb stir fry with veg and Paleo 'hoisin sauce'
Snacks: meatballs