Eating too much, drinking too much, doing too little… don’t know why, and I’m not giving up on the fight, but I’m away for the weekend so I’ll pick up on Monday, hopefully by then I’ll have enough of the crap
Friday, 31 August 2012
Monday, 27 August 2012
So, once again, TTOM snuck up on me and I fell into the vat of chocolate before I realised what was going on. Not to mention the beer lake and the anything that isn’t nailed down mountain. I don’t think I stopped eating yesterday… and I didn’t take a single food picture or add one item to the food diary because I really didn’t want to know…
Back to work today.
Friday, 24 August 2012
Quite day yesterday due to the continued fall out from my body’s over-reaction to the meal out on Wednesday evening.
I didn’t manage to fast till lunchtime as I planned, but figured that losing most the dinner I’d eaten meant I shouldn’t mind that too much. Didn’t over eat though, so that was something, especially as I didn’t risk training or walking far.
Breakfast: overnight oats with whey & berries
Lunch: Lentil salad topped with smoked tuna slices (tinned by John West – very tasty!)
Dinner: Chestnut-vegetable soup
Snacks: Almond drop biscuit
Weight: 152 lbs
Thursday, 23 August 2012
Yesterday I was tired as hell when I got up after a bad night’s sleep so I found it pretty hard to get going and didn’t manage to skip breakfast as planned – though I did eat it late enough to still qualify as a 17hr fast, so I wasn’t too bothered by that. In the morning I had to wait in for a plumber, but after he’d been and gone I went to Reading for some DIY supplies (anyone else HATE all DIY stores, or is it just me?) and came back around lunchtime.
In the afternoon M told me that he’d been feeling light headed and dodgy all day, so wanted to forget sticking to the diet he’s on and suggested we went out to eat. I’d already had what I intended to be my main meal of the day (though it wasn’t as big as expected) so wasn’t too keen; then I got my second wind and got on the mountain climber for 50 minutes, after which I felt I probably could manage an Indian meal, so off we went. I tried not to be too piggish (with limited success) and didn’t drink, but still finished the meal stuffed as stuffed could be, and tired too – so I went to bed early and then was up in the middle of the night as the universe fell out of my ass, so to speak… apologies for the TMI!!! I don’t think for a second that was down to the food being dodgy, just my body not being used to eating that much non-home cooked food any more.
Breakfast: Smoothie with berries & whey
Lunch: Saltfish stew with brown rice. I’ve had this saltfish in the cupboard for I don’t know how long, having bought it on impulse without a clue what I would do with it; but I’m on a mission to use up the store cupboard ingredients I usually ignore. This was chewier than I expect fish to be, but very tasty
Dinner: Poppadum with all the condiments followed by garlic mushrooms
then Cod Roshani – very low fat tandoori cod
with spinach bhaji
Snacks: apple & babybel, almond drop biscuit
Wednesday, 22 August 2012
Didn’t really feel the blogging yesterday (though I read my comments and really appreciated them, thanks Diane and Deniz) – not so much berating myself for a bad day as feeling a bit hmph, here we go again…
Anyway, apart from an excess of dried fruit and raw almonds I did a lot better yesterday and feel a bit more positive today. Even though I’d really like it if I could just wake up tomorrow back at my goal weight I guess I can pretend to be a grown-up and accept its not going to happen that way… after all, I’m going to be 41 on the 1st of September (41 going on 25 in my brain) so its probably time!
Yesterday I was expecting a delivery so I stayed in for it. Once it finally arrived (3pm – and yes, I was going nuts by then) I popped into town for some shopping but it was so hot and humid that I didn’t manage more than that – a 1 mile walk – wow. That’ll have the weight dropping off! I swear I was in some kind of time loop or something, I kept checking the clock every couple of hours only to realise that it had actually been about 15 minutes since the last time… must keep more active…
Breakfast: 2 bowls of all bran because I was feeling uncomfortably blocked again. And it worked. Really well.
Lunch: baked potato with leftover tofu taco and a salad
Dinner: Soup (vegetable and chestnut – I had a tin of cooked chestnuts in the cupboard.) This is really good, shame I just threw the veg in based on what I had and how long I expected it to keep, so I’ll never be able to recreate it)
Snacks: random bits and pieces, fruit, ham, babybel lite etc
Breakfast: Smoothie of berries, spinach, whey
Lunch: salad of puy lentils and feta cheese loosely based on this recipe (nothing special I’m afraid – not the way I made it anyway)
and a hard boiled egg
Dinner: Chicken adobo with vegetables
Snacks: as mentioned, too many bags of raisins, too many raw almonds, plus a bag of Popchips
Monday, 20 August 2012
Yesterday got off to a good start – no breakfast, 6.5 miles walked (all in one go instead of lots of choppy, unsatisfying short walks) and relaxation. Then I got depressed for no apparent reason mid-afternoon and attempted to feel better with rum, PB & chocolate fudge. How surprising that it didn’t work…
And I didn’t dare weigh myself this morning as a result.
Lunch: salad of noodles, tinned crab meat, rocket and a few bits of salad
Dinner: New Covent Garden brand Parsnip, Apple and Elderflower soup, which I forgot to photograph
Snacks: Popchips, chocolate fudge (by the large chunk), ham, peanut butter…. need I go on? Didn’t think so….
Sunday, 19 August 2012
Friday I took the train to go to my interview so I wouldn’t have to get stressed about finding parking etc. It took a large chunk of the day (I left the house at 7:40 and returned at 2:15pm) and I ended up with the feeling that I don’t want the job. So it was also a wasted day. And because I was nervous I ate a caramel-hazelnut tart and a chocolate –coconut truffle bar from M&S before the interview, then a small bag of pic’n’mix chocolate coated sweets afterwards because I was annoyed. Followed by a takeaway from the local Italian restaurant for dinner. Ah well. At least I discovered my work suits still fit me and I’m trying to look on it as practice for a future interview.
Yesterday M and I went into Reading to watch a ridiculously early showing of The Dark Knight Rises (9:40am!!!). It was great actually, only 7 people in the theatre including us, no kids, and no talking through the movie. Even though I’d had no breakfast I managed to resist M’s popcorn too, so that was a plus! I did enjoy the movie but felt it didn’t quite deserve the rave reviews, it was a bit long (especially as there was a full 30 mins of adverts & trailers beforehand) and by the time we left my back was aching from sitting in the cinema seats for so long.
Lunch: M&S sushi eaten in a train station
Dinner: Spinach & mushroom risotto (bigger, more fattening, and more delicious than the ones I make…)
Snacks: see above…
Lunch: GF bread sandwich with an egg and a couple of slices of ham, followed by some melon slices
Dinner: Split pea – chorizo soup (now finished) with gf toast
Snacks: 1 pack of fruit roll ups, a tiny bit of fudge, and 2 drinks of vodka / rum mixed with pineapple juice (to be clear, that’s one of vodka & juice, then one of banana flavoured rum with juice, not a mixture of both in both drinks)
Weight: 153 lbs. sigh
Friday, 17 August 2012
Thursday, 16 August 2012
Before breakfast I walked just over two and a half miles, then another mile later, but then in the afternoon I finally got up off my lazy ass and did a 40 min mountain climber session while watching Criminal Minds. I sweated buckets due to a combination of the unbelievable heat & humidity and the exercise, and felt amazing afterwards! Must do that again soon…
Breakfast: All bran with a donut peach and raisins
Lunch: A noodle salad of GF pumpkin, ginger & rice noodles with tuna mayonnaise + soy sauce, sweetcorn, red onion, and pickled daikon
Dinner: Split pea-chorizo soup with GF toast
Snacks: Overdid things slightly in this area in yesterday – peanut butter straight from the tub and various dried fruits in addition to my planned Greek yoghurt & defrosted berries snack
Weight: 152.4 lbs
Wednesday, 15 August 2012
I was a bit more active yesterday, walking about 5.75 miles (4 of them before breakfast – because I didn’t have breakfast). I had an appointment at 9:45 to get my cholesterol checked at the local surgery as my family has a tendency to high cholesterol, and it was a fasting test, and by the time I got home afterwards I just didn’t fancy any breakfast. Instead I bulked up lunch a bit when I had it. This trying to extend my fast thing is weird and interesting to me. On the first few days I was predictably hungry around the time I would usually have breakfast, then it would wear off a bit. A few times I was obsessing over what I could eat and when I could eat it, but I never felt really tempted to eat earlier. Now I’m not getting hungry so early, but still think about what I might eat when I break the fast, yet when it comes to it I’m not over-eating or even as interested in the food that I’ve planned as I would expect – weird…
I did have some slight stomach issues in the morning, so I didn’t try to train beyond the walking (which was broken up into 3 shorter chunks). Its starting to bother me how long its been since I used the climber, maybe that will give me the push I clearly need to get back into the swing of it.
Lunch: Home-made split pea – chorizo soup with an almond flour drop biscuit topped with coconut butter. (I told you they looked like ginger cookies!)
Dinner: Spinach & mushroom risotto topped with a poached egg – yum!
Snacks: Some dried fruit and a smoothie topped with ground flax seeds
Tuesday, 14 August 2012
Yesterday was yet another day of appointments and chores, so I’m still waiting to get my big walks started – and as I have a job interview on Friday, I’m a little worried in case I don’t have a lot of time (the job is a 45 minute drive away – each way – so I’ll probably have to find a way to exercise at that end if I get it) I’m finally feeling more in control of the food side, and my weight is creeping in the right direction, so I don’t things to start going wrong now…
For the first time since we moved I did a little baking yesterday – I used a recipe for Drop biscuits from my GF Almond Flour Cookbook. The recipe used agave nectar, but I wanted to use up some date syrup, so mine look more like ginger cookies! You’ll see them appearing from time to time…
Breakfast: 2 poached eggs on GF toast with grilled asparagus & mushroom
Lunch: Feta cheese salad
Dinner: A spinach curry package (spices plus a sauce) that should have been used with meat, but I made it with beans, okra, onion and peas; served with plain brown rice
Snacks: Greek yoghurt sweetened a tiny bit with a smidgeon of sugar free vanilla syrup; a beautiful (and wonderfully named) donut peach
Weight: 153 lbs
Monday, 13 August 2012
I only walked about 2 miles Saturday for a brief visit to Reading. It was very hot and humid again and it just didn’t appeal to me. Also didn’t train on the mountain climber – so an almost complete rest. Sunday I spent mostly in the car and with my mother. her OH is in hospital in Wiltshire after a knee replacement op. on Friday, so I drove down and took her in to visit him. She doesn’t drive, and the buses don’t run on Sunday, so I was her only way to see him – and it gave me a good excuse for the drive! We lunched in Wetherspoons first, and visited my brother’s cat on the way to the hospital, plus spending lots of time just chatting. And we were both really impressed by the way her OH was zooming around the ward only 48 hrs post-surgery! (Poor thing is highly motivated to heal because he’s desperate to get home)
Breakfast: TVP ‘oatmeal’. Jessica, it’s based on this recipe except I replaced the sweetener, spices & vanilla essence with sugar free syrup I bought when I decided to try to make Starbucks-esque flavoured lattes at home. First time round I made it on the stove, this time I used the slow cooker, and the stove method is better in my opinion. I use unflavoured soya based TVP.
Lunch: Salad with low fat feta cheese
Dinner: Spicy Korean Tuna stew – doesn’t look like anything, but very interesting flavours and I’ll make it again
Snacks: Greek yoghurt with defrosted fruit
Breakfast: Berry-spinach-whey smoothie
Lunch: Baked potato filled with roasted veggies and a side salad
Dinner: A sandwich of GF bread, deli chicken slices and low fat coleslaw (no picture, sorry)
Saturday, 11 August 2012
Yesterday was a pretty good day for me. In the morning I had a meds review at my local surgery where I was complemented on my ‘beautiful’ blood pressure and told that I was clearly doing the right things to be healthy (physically – she knows I’m on anti-depressants but not what a nutter I am generally). It was a lovely day so in the afternoon I went for a walk – about 4 miles, the longest single stretch of walking I’ve done since we’ve moved, as the pressure of getting things done has been forcing me to break down my walking into chunks of a mile or less at a time – just not as much fun or as relaxing for me. I also did just under a couple of miles walking to and from the doctor’s, so in total nearly 6 miles.
Food-wise the day went well as well. I didn’t eat breakfast till about 9:45 (I WAS hungry for a large part of the morning though… and drinking lots of black tea and water in an attempt to assuage the hunger) and didn’t overeat when it was time, or indeed for the rest of the day. Hopefully soon I’ll adapt to the long break and start feeling less hungry.
Breakfast: Scrambled eggs on GF toast with dry-fried mushrooms
Lunch: Last portion of carrot-pumpkin soup
Dinner: Salmon marinated in a spicy barbecue sauce based on lapsang souchong, with roast asparagus, sautéed samphire, and steamed veggies
Snacks: Fat free Greek yoghurt mixed with a little almond flour & some ground flaxseeds;
a snack pack of dates
Friday, 10 August 2012
I spent all day yesterday (up till around 3 pm anyway) waiting for a delivery that I eventually learned was not going to happen. Arrgh. I also had the council collecting a non-working appliance and a charity collecting some furniture I was donating, so my day was tedious in the extreme. And achy – 40 minutes on the mountain climber + 3 miles (approx) walking the day before left my legs complaining ever time I hit the stairs (have I mentioned I now live in a three storey townhouse?)
So knowing I had to stay in all day yesterday I did at least go for an early morning walk, which was lovely because I actually was cool, whereas later it got hot and sticky again. I just set a timer for 30 mins and headed out, then turned back when the mobile phone beeped at me. I left it at that to give my legs time to recover; they thanked me with the above-mentioned complaining and aching…
I managed to put off breakfast till 9:30 yesterday – I get up at 5am so that’s quite a while I feel! It was harder yesterday than the day before, I didn’t over-eat once I started eating but I was obsessing over food for a large part of the day. Still, determined to keep going if I can pull it off.
Breakfast: TVP ‘oatmeal’ with lots of berries
Lunch: Carrot-pumpkin soup
Dinner: Leftover rice noodles in a salad with prawns, red onion, sweetcorn, peas & peppers in a bottled ginger & sesame salad dressing
Snacks: Greek yoghurt with defrosted berries & ground flaxseeds; babybel cheese
Thursday, 9 August 2012
I handed the keys over on the rental house yesterday, though I’m still waiting to find out if the deposit will be returned. It feels like that’s all out of my hands now though, so I’m suddenly mostly relaxed about that – there’s nothing more I can do, so why worry?
I worked out yesterday – climbed on the Versaclimber for the first time probably in 2 months. It has a manual mode as well as programs, and I stayed manual, but lasted 40 minutes so I was very pleased with that. Especially as I’d already walked 3 miles before my (late) breakfast! However, I did feel like a wrung-out dishcloth by evening, with barely the strength to prep and cook dinner let alone eat it, so I guess I overdid it!
Breakfast: All bran with raisins, strawberries, blueberries & blackberries
Lunch: Home-made curried carrot-pumpkin soup with GF toast
Dinner: Stir fry with tofu and rice noodles
Weight: 154.25 lbs – nowhere near where I want to be, but based on BMI I’m now back at a normal healthy weight!